apart

you can say i never loved you
if thats what gives you peace
you can fake like what we had
i didn't want to keep

you can pretend that it didn't happen
put it in the back of your mind
but those memories stay
stagnant
they won't get lost in time

what we had was real
sad it had to end
you were my first love
my first someone
my best friend

we had each other through it all
every mile stone
even the falls
but then you stayed down
and i was trying so hard
to help you up
i kept you up
the load kept getting heavier
and i just wasn't strong enough

and how did that burden get put on me?
how did that become my responsibility
your struggles are your own
why did i let them influence me
i let my heart decide
when really, should've listened to my fucking mind
because now here we are
apart
and its "my fault"
but really it was yours,
from the start